Sort of accidental-like, we selected Sam’s life hymn. If you know me you know that I am in love with old hymns, so when I was pregnant with Sam I gave some thought to what hymn I would like to be “his” hymn. I sort of had planned to sing this hymn right after he was born, but as it turns out I had vastly underestimated how completely wiped out I would be immediately after pushing a 9 lb 4 oz child out from inside of me, and we never really settled on a hymn before I had him.
Someday I’ll write a post about all our sleep struggles with this kid, but for now let’s just say that he’s not been a great sleeper. He doesn’t need as much sleep as other babies his age, he needs more parental help winding down/falling asleep than other babies his age, and he needs more help staying asleep than other babies his age. It’s just how he is.
So at some point, maybe 4 months, I started singing the hymn, “Jesus, I am resting, resting” to him when rocking him to sleep. (Yeah, it was really neat when he would only sleep if he was touching me — in our bed or in a rocking chair). I don’t really care for the original tune (kinda boring) but I love the version Matthew Smith sings on his album “All I Owe.” It’s been my prayer for Sam — that he’d be able to rest at night — but ultimately that he’d find peace for his little, sweet, restless, spirited soul in Christ. And, it’s been a comfort to me as well — that I’d find rest in Jesus even when my body longs for sleep and I am at my wit’s end trying to figure out why my child doesn’t sleep like the books all say he “should” or “can” if only I follow these 4 easy steps, etc.